October 31, 2007

Breaking up

Why relationships break up? People love each other for years. They spend hours together, discussing the whole world. They give their best -- love and time. But what actually makes people snap their ties? Will life be the same? Or, they have to live with that void for the rest of their lives?

August 20, 2007

Living nightmare

Friends, here's the short story that appeared in 'The Statesman' on July 1. The link I posted a few weeks ago is not working.

It took a while before I could feel the others’ presence. I could not see them, but they were whispering. I could not gather what they were talking about. Some voices were familiar. It gave me some solace. “I’m not alone. I’ve got some company,” I thought, though I didn’t who they were. It took a while before I could feel the others’ presence. I could not see them, but they were whispering. I could not gather what they were talking about. After covering the VVIP’s visit to the drought-hit areas for two days I’m completely drained of energy. True, getting Page One slots for the reports on the famine and the VVIP’s promises was gratifying. But I wanted to take a compensatory off the following day. I deserved it, I thought. But my boss said I had to file an analysis of the high-profile visit that assured abundant water to parched areas, which were becoming virtual graveyards.There was no escape. He would have the last laugh. I had to oblige. It might be tough selling ice to an Eskimo. But the VVIP was a seasoned politician. He knew well what would appeal to the villagers, hit hard by the famine. We, the reporters, knew what he was up to. But our hands were tied. We knew what to write and what not to. We were supposed to sell his dreams, and save the nightmares for ourselves.After filing stories on wonderful dreams of water and imminent riches, I reached home at the midnight. My wife told me the child had waited for me all the evening before going to bed. “You should have come home early. He was expecting you to get him the Red Ranger wristband you promised him,” she said.I didn’t utter a word. I showered, ate my dinner and laid beside him and drew him close to me. I said I was sorry and kissed him on his cheeks. I knew quite well he would very happy, when he saw me sleeping next to him in the morning.I too fell asleep a while later. Soon I slipped into a dream, or rather a nightmare. One that still haunts as I narrate it. It was about darkness. Stark darkness. I could not recollect whether I fell into that seemingly endless, infinite pit accidentally or if someone threw me into it.Was it a trap? Or did I commit suicide, falling slowly into perpetual sleep? I could not recollect whether I was standing still or was falling down the deepest of chasms. Or was I floating in a sea of darkness? The vastness and invincibility of the darkness sent a chill down my spine. Or was it where I have been living all these years?Profusely sweating, I thought I would never come out and see light again. It seemed to me I was condemned to live there forever, a thought that frightened me. Then it occurred to me if I was suffering this torment all alone. But what about the others? My wife, son, parents, friends — where were they?It took a while before I could feel the others’ presence. I could not see them, but they were whispering. I could not gather what they were talking about. Some voices were familiar. It gave me some solace. “I’m not alone. I’ve got some company,” I thought, though I didn’t who they were.But I wondered whether they were aware of my presence at all. I tried to say something. A muffled voice prevented me, saying “Sshh! Don’t talk.” I recognised the voice. It was my wife!Perhaps it was animal instinct — a warning about lurking danger. I didn’t utter a word. But it didn’t help me. It only added to my confusion and fears. Was something serious happening? I didn’t know what to do. Should I shout for help? Should I talk to my wife and neighbours? It seemed they were aware of the problem.Someone was saying, “I’ll talk to the Minister tomorrow. Take it from me, I’ll make them weep for what they have done to us. I won’t leave them alone.” Yes, it was my neighbour. He was dropping names.But I had no clue what was happening. I didn’t know what how long I would continue to suffer. It suddenly occurred to me that I had been living there for ages.That idea did no good. I sank further.After some time, still in the darkness, I could identify the faces of people I knew. But there were some figures darker than the darkness. Soon I noticed that the others were listening to the grotesque figures. I, too, started listening.The gigantic figures, moved in menacingly, yelled, “There will be light. There will be light. Don’t listen to those who talk of darkness. There will be water. There will be water. Don’t believe those who talk of parched land. There will be food and gold all over.”I saw tears rolling down the cheeks of some people. But I could not make out whether they were tears of sadness or joy. The voices around me were whispering. Hurling abuse. But I could not understand whether they were abusing themselves or cursing others. Instinctively I drew my scribbling pad from my back pocket and started jotting down the promises, as the pitter-patter of rain turned into a shower, drenching us. We were all wet. But I managed to note down the points with a ballpoint pen. I had got enough forthe story, it would probably go on Page 1, with the headline “Leaders assure light, water, food and gold”.There were howls coming from all around me. The protests too there must have been there. But they were simply washed over in that uproar. It seemed there was no end to that commotion. My son’s voice dragged me out of the dream. “Get up. Get up father,” he shook me, because he wanted to be out there in the thick of the action.“The municipal tanker has arrived. There was no power last night. The kid was crying all the night and you didn’t give a damn.You were sleeping like a log,” my wife screamed at me.Without saying a word, I ran out holding a plastic can. It was a free-for-all. People were shouting at each other, calling names. I had to join them.

August 17, 2007

Different ways of looking at the world!

I took this photograph at my son's annual sports day. After taking a print, I realised that none of the kids looking at one direction. They have their own way of looking at things. It's we, the elders, who try to discipline them and mould their outlook. Isn't it?

July 07, 2007

hi friends,
The Eight Day, the Sunday supplement of The Statesman daily carried by short story on July 1. Though I have some25 stories to my credit in Telugu, this is my first attempt in English. Here's the link

March 01, 2007

Living chaos

See everyday thousands of people going in buses, cars, trains, autos and on two-wheelers -- caught in traffic hold-ups, abusing one another, ending up in hospitals. All the chaos would pause at times to make way for VIPs -- the men in hurry to serve us! The moment the VIPs zip fast, the chaos reins, again. Wonder whether the people follow this set pattern everyday, or they themselves form the pattern untiringly.

మాటలో ఏముంది? ఉన్నదంతా విరుపులోనే!

పదాలలో పరుషపదాలు వేరు కావు. అవి ఎప్పుడు, ఎలా, ఎందుకు వాడతామో పరుషమా కాదా అన్నది తేలుతుంది.  కాలేజీరోజుల్లో, మా సుబ్బారావుని ఓసారి, "...